oh lord I need your

mercy and grace

to cross ocean of samasara.

I need in abundant

for I do not have great guru.

neither ability to recognize one.

my mind like a

cart wheel stuck in mud.

refuse to move out of samsara

 

I am sinner who have hurt people

in words, action and thought.

Addicted to sensual pleasure

Struggling to remember your name.

faith I can put in

gold and men

not in your holy name.

oh lord I need your

ocean of mercy and grace.

 

 

I know what is good.

I am unable to follow.

I know what is evil

I am unable to resist.

sorry oh! lord

even what is good and bad

this humble dog

cannot  distinguish many times.

 

I say things which should not be

I do things which are non essential.

 on people's action and life

I try to act as judge and jury

for I know that your work.

in the morning of life

I started with lot of hope.

it is mid day

I have lost seeking itself.

Ii hope to see u before evening of life.

 

many saints and intelligent people

have been deluded with your powers of maya.

do not test this dog

for I am too weak in will.

come soon, come near me

for i want to feel your presence

clasping your hand

 I want to end innings of life.

 

I see death and does not remember

thy name,

I see your mercy and compassion

in all creatures.

Ii forget on and off.

bless me so that this confusion

is over for ever

 

Ii want to bath in your grace

and abandoned the clothes of samasara.

u have given me many things

yet contentment is yet to come.

like a oil maker ox

I go round and round

in this game of delusion and illusion.

for I need your grace and mercy

to remember your holy name.

 

instead chanting your name

I fanaticize to possess magical powers

I worshipped as a saint

Such is foolish fake ways of thinking

I am not learned in Sanskrit

Or holy texts.

I can pronounce holy verses with error

such is level of ignorance

A simple way I want to remember your name

Just like how I remember myself .

 

I complain all the time

Either about your creations or you.

Little challenged I howl as pain.

Even in joy

I do not remember u with gratefulness

I want to others change

For I believe pompously

I am too perfect.

I seek company to boost my ego

Not for praying in silence.

When some thing happens to grace.

Shamelessly I want to take the credit.

Such is my reckless way.

Show me the way oh lord.

Change me like grape become wine.

Fit enough served in your presence.

 

with little powers given by u.

I boast about my greatness

instead of yours.

with little success my ego

gets inflated.

with little good Ii try to do

I demand eternal gratefulness.

with little insight

Ii try to believe that i have

understood mystery of life.

Fanciful theory and models

of science

I try to define u

oh unfathomable master.

I think i am special

With little tricks in sleeves

Like  a sleazy magician

I delude people

Yet think this is holy work.

Believe that I am

Made for some noble  purpose

For ant in your kingdom

Does more work than me

 

Even in prayers in fantasize on

This and that.

Such is my deluded mind

like  a pompous donkey

I talk on life and living

when I have 1000 holed life.

I see people more holier than me

I see action of people more loving.

when can I  hope to achieve these states

 

may I seek only your mercy and grace

like hungry men seeking food.

thirsty person seeking water.

like a child seeking his parents.

I seek your grace due to your grace.

king of love wave  of compassion.

I have missed u today in  1000 ways.

for many life time.

 I fear this time also

to miss u.

when this will ever stop.

 

Even writing these verses

I am thinking whom to send

And how people will appreciate.

I do not think of changing myself

Learning holy lessons of humility

Such is little tricks I play.

 

When will this little I

Disappear in your holy thou.

lord I need your

mercy and grace

to cross tempest and tempting

ocean of samasara.

The magical world of illusion

Where water becomes wind

Wind becomes water.